ol' blue hair

my hair is back to being vibrant again and this time i went for blues, i needed something that was going to cover and i didn't want to have to bleach a lot to get the base i needed for oranges and yellows so i settled on blue. the roots and bottom layers are 'shocking blue' and the tips are, 'atomic turquoise,' both are manic panic colors. KidTerror should be pleased since his favorite hair color on me is blue.

next time i may go purple, or do something drastic with bleach and go neon green or something, it's a fair option since i already have the color handy. yesterday when i colored i counted 12 individual colors not including a few natural tones that i had handy......addiction much? i think so, good thing it's not too harmful since i'm careful and have experience.

currently i'm really into the idea of neon colors so i may opt for one of those next and forgo jewel tones, for a while.

i love rambling about my hair~

***btw, i didn't cut my hair, most of it is just pulled back...


wicked little thing

umm........YAY! my first dollmore girl came in today! she has alot of personality and i loved her the second i put eyes in her. she is called Ivy and i think she's my spoiled rich girl but who knows for now.....

i love her disdainful little face! and i can't wait for my flocke!!!

in addition to my new doll i also received yarn in the mail, but i won't show you any pictures of that since it's not dyed yet.

some hair news to come later this evening or tomorrow....


little pieces of happiness

i feel better today but i think that's largely due to the fact that it's friday and that i'm rested. i don't have much to ramble on about but i do have some pictures that i'd like to share.

my engagement ring ^^, it's still not sized but it's really pretty and it means i'm another step closer to being hitched to KidTerror, yay!

some hello kitty stuff from my backpack, i don't think there's enough *tee hee* on the left is a compact and the right hand side has a little tin with mints (both gifts from KidTerror). i just thought that they were something cute to post.

and since i already shared some hello kitty love here's some tokidoki for you. i really love the little candle guy, he's a candidate for a tattoo, although i would make the flame green and possibly make the skull a kitty skull so it would be more personalized.

here's one of my newest acquisitions from sallys. i had been wanting some neon colors to round out my nail polish spectrum and i'm pretty happy with these. the only things that i'm a little meh with is that the polish requires alot of coats to be opaque and it's not a high gloss polish. other than that the colors are pretty keen, my nail are the green at the moment .

and here's a teaser pic of some knitting and a ball of yarn i've dyed. it's two strands of lace weight combined for a thin fingering weight yarn. it's nice to have some knitting around.

here are some pots that i did in an art class about a year ago. i had left them in the kiln room and since my prof was doing a clean-up there i thought that i should rescue them. i love them both and they are were really fun the make, i like the one on the left the most but the other one is also quite charming. i'm going to try and get them glazed this semester but i don't want to take away from the patterns...hmmm we'll see ^^

that's all for today. i'm waiting on doll parts and ready for the weekend...


crumminess with a touch of mental malaise

i never re-read my posts, for me it feels taboo and the thought of doing so makes me uncomfortable. i prefer not to recall things i've written and done. acknowledgment for just about anything feels like being ambushed.

i feel worn out and angry bleh. i thought about blogging about it decided not to.

kisses KidTerror<3<3<3<3

maybe a change of hair will make me feel better.....that or murder, or drugs, or dare i say it, hookers?

meh nix all that....here's a picture of lucan....

even though he's just a hunk of plastic i love him <3



first of all, this week feels like it's dragging on and i'm ready for the weekend and sleeping late so i wish it would hurry up!

right now i'm sitting at work, everything has been done and since there's nothing to do this is the time when i normally do my homework, and being the good student i am (<- working on it) i have all my math homework, notes and book ready to go. all that would be wonderful and i would happily work on my math homework but me being the dumb-ass i am left my calculator at home *le sigh* sometimes i wish my responsible side would give the ditzy side of me a stern talking to and maybe rough her up, but knowing her she'd probably just forget about it the next day....

in other news, i'm proud to say that i attended both my art classes! for some that's not saying much but for me it's a pretty dig deal. it's not like i dislike my major it's just that being squished into a tiny studio with people who i don't know (rude people) is really uncomfortable to say the least. luckily i was able to expel all my rage and anxiety towards my clay which is now nicely wedged and ready to work up on friday.

turns out that the first project in sculpture is a bust and i don't mean breasts and a torso like many people have speculated, contains only (in this case) the shoulders and head. i'm a little frightened of this project but i'm going to try to pay attention and make sure that i have an idea of what i'm doing before i go off and mess something up.

since i managed to go to painting as well i was a little surprised to see that nearly everyone favors a realistic style of painting figures. i know that is what a limited art program like mine stresses but in a class where there's not lesson plans and free-paint is always the assignment, it was hard to believe that no one had really taken on a style or did things outside of the norm. that's not to say that there weren't any people that deviated from normal human proportions but they were a small population indeed.

i also noted that although that class is large: most of the people don't show up and the ones that do are very quiet so it's a pretty peaceful place once i put in my earbuds and tune out all noise. i think as long as i keep my mp3 player handy and make sure to stake out a good spot each day i won't have any problems. if my prof. starts making assignments then i may change my mind....

still rambling about painting......i started another painting today and i HATE it! while the color combination POPS well the composition leaves alot to be desired....i made the mistake of going to class with a blank canvas instead of planning and sketching at home before bringing it to class. that's something that i do to myself often, but this time i'll blame it on being busy and having a cluttered workspace....

blabbing on, i can't hold on to painting ideas for shit. it really is pretty bad but i've been knocking around the idea of an octopus girl (KidTerror would be excited if he read this). she would be all human but have the octopus and its tentacles function as her hair/hat...eh it's all i bit muddled but it's something that i've been knocking around for a while (think 6+ months), i don't think i've attempted it because i'm worried that i won't be able to get it to look right or people will just look and say "what's that?" meh who knows i may attempt it this semester when i have a few more paintings done that i feel fine with.

doll news~~~ my flocke head shipped! i didn't even noticed because i've been so busy but i'm pretty excited, i also made the second payment for my isaac girl and can't wait to work on them and get them ready for DoA. these will be my first girls from dollmore and i really think that they will work out, although the isaac head is the only one that i'm the tiniest bit iffy about, but i'm sure with the right face, name, wig, eyes, and clothes that she'll be much loved like Lucan and Panda(monium).

since i'm all over the place as usual, i'm dyeing my hair again this weekend! my roots are horrid looking so i'll have to re-bleach and then re-color. i don't know what color i'll be next. the pinks from 'beyond the zone' sucked the big one when i used them so i'm tempted to just chunk out those colors since i didn't like them and don't plan on going pink anytime soon (sorry carrie but it washing me out bad). other colors i have considered are teal, orange, and purple. come to think of it all those colors sound pretty sweet so i'll most likely just pick at random when i make a trip to sallys. random gripe but the sallys girls all look at me like i'm crazy when i go buy bleach and color, i always get the, "don't you know this damages your hair?" and, "do you know how to use these?" both those questions annoy me. yes ma'am i do know this is damaging to my hair but your poorly drawn on eyebrows and lip hair hurt me so i would appreciate it if you keep your dumb comments to yourself. yeah i'm not so mean as to say that but some days it is something that crosses my mind....MORE RANT, and you would think they would remember me i'm in there at least twice a month and have a sallys card and inquire often about products but hey some people are just as observant as cattle......meh.

damn my posts are long these days....um kitty niles you hooker you promise to read but comments i do not see.....and carrie i hope i get to see the occasional post from you (they always brighten my day) and thank you for recommending Margaret and Helen


interesting kinda bad day...

today has been odd. the entire day i've felt like the entire world is vibrating, it's a feeling that's i notice in my vision and in my hearing (sounds like a dull buzzing). i don't like it, i've also felt nauseous =_='' and being super nervous and busy hasn't helped it (i went to both of my art classes and made conversation with someone in the last one XD).

work has been tiring, even though everyone is asleep, and i've finished all my work stuff i don't feel like i can be at piece, i think it comes from having an odd morning and going to all my classes. i don't even feel up to doing some art homework and looking over tomorrows math lesson....

days when i'm busy and out of the house make me LONG to be home. i love feeling safe and secure amongst all my belongings and KidTerror; i think i've come to like staying home too much....

although i started off last week with a sunny disposition, a full day of art class kinda killed that for me. i hate feeling angry at all the people around me for no reason, it's ridiculous and rude. i tend to automatically categorize people and it sucks, it affects all aspects of my life and i wish it was a switch i could turn off. i don't consider myself hateful but i can and do think hateful thoughts. i guess it's a positive sign that i recognize that thinking ill of people for no reason is wrong but some days i have a hard time drawing the line between snarky (humorous) and mean. it really upsets KidTerror and i'm just recently noticing how much i do it.

bleh this post is really a downer.....let's see something positive.....meh i think getting to see KidTerror in a few hours is it for now....



heh heh heh yarn

i bought some bare yarn from knit picks, 3 sock blanks and 2 superwash worsted skeins.

i never like to buy colored yarn, because once i realized i could dye it myself i never wanted to do anything else (funny how my yarn dyeing and my hair coloring is similar).

i can't wait til my order comes in! although KidTerror may not enjoy me doing yet another crazy thing with highly concentrated pigments ^^"

excited <3

*tsk tsk*

i was thinking about how i claim to be a knitter, and sadly realized that i hardly ever knit anymore. i only note it with sadness because it's something i find really relaxing and enjoyable as well as useful. i also re-visited the yarnharlot and it made me even more sad, i used to keep up with every post she put up and i don't think that i ever visited it this past year.

in fact i can't really remember the last time i finished a project...(although i am very close to finishing a scarf)...i also don't visit ravelry often, and the last time i did i didn't do much besides look at my inbox and then log back out again.

i imagine this absence from the knitting world can be largely attributed to my lack of free-time, my full-time job, and my ever growing obsession with my dolls, not to mention that the local yarn availability leaves much to be desired (i'm looking at you flying needle, you bunch of quilting old biddies! ha ha ha i won't even get started on your overpriced are supplies!).

all this random talk about knitting is due to the fact that i really want to get back in that hobby. with all the stress that i'm dealing with this semester and the constant stress of work, i want to reclaim a little bit of my sanity and i think that knitting would be a wonderful outlet to do so.

so to cut this short, i'm going to go buy some yarn on the internet <3 <3 <3


disparagingly divine doll deals demand direction

i had planned on ranting about work this evening but i re-thought it and decided that it was best left alone, but i do have more dolly news!

i currently have two dollmore girls coming in! and both of them were cheap because i was able to to partial trades for some doll parts that i already had! i had been worried that i would never get rid of my modded MOMO boy and had pretty much given up on selling him when a trade for a girl body for a boy body came up, it was so exciting once i was able to make the trade. i feel like i'm ready to have a girl doll, i love my boys but it's time that my house got some resin va-jay-jays to stop the resin sausage fest lol.

i was content after i found someone to trade with and was ok with marking just the head now even more for a quick sale. it was all going as planned until i saw another dollmore girl go up for sale and i decided to ask for a partial trade on a whim and it was accepted! so i currently have two female dolls waiting to come to my house.

after all the drama and stress lately, it's nice to get the opportunity to expand my collection at a prices that is more than reasonable and that rids me of doll parts that i don't want. the only trouble i think i'll have is planning faces, wardrobes, and personalities for these girls. not to mention names!

i haven't even decided on coloration for them, i have a few spare wigs, eyes, and clothing lying around so i'll make do until i can save up some more cash for some proper items for them.

i know my hobby seems really materialist but i don't really care, my dolls give me great joy and customizing them and playing with them is relaxing. it's also nice to have little art models around the house that don't complain or need to eat. they also connect with all the other hobbies and interests i have so i never really feel guilty about purchasing one, i say if you enjoy it you should indulge yourself. you will only live once (no matter what religious person tells you =_=) so you should enjoy things while you can!

meandering a little off the doll topic but not quite....i really want to get a tattoo soon, i know that i shouldn't rush into something like that but i feel an odd persistent desire to get one. i'm not really motivated by anything, so just having the feeling that i should go do that is strange.

odd compulsion i know ^^"

on the subject of tattoos, and going back to abjd's, i would really love a doll related tattoo. i think it would be something that is not only representative of my hobby, but feminine and quirky. those are two adjectives that i really like, now if it were "clever" i would have already been sold on it.

i'm of the mindset that i just don't want the tattoos i get to be pretty or cool but to mean things to me. i want them to be reminders of things that i cherish and things i have accomplished. this is not to say that i think that people that get them just because they like a cool design are silly or stupid, i just want the ink that i get to be highly representational of my personality and my interests. it may be vain but a small amount of personal hubris is to be encouraged, but if i start walking around with a big head, i'll appreciate being knocked down a few notches ^^.

my blog posts feel so manic and scattered, but since i do them just for fun i'm not really bothered. it is a relaxing activity that at times keeps me sane.

off to listen to some empire of the sun and play puzzle quest <3

yeah my nerd-ness is vast <3 <3 <3 <3


redbull cola and twizzlers

second day of class was rampant with HORRIBLE-NESS! to be honest i only went to my first class, it only took that one class to freak me out. but the freak-out and the misdirected anger at KidTerror made me see that my behavior wasn't normal.

i don't normally publicize my issue but i think that blogging about them could be cathartic. we'll see.

in case you were unaware i have issues with social anxiety and at times depression. those problems coupled with low self-esteem and a high level of stress at work and in school don't make me function very well. all the problems i mentioned have been things that i have struggled with for as long as i can remember. i've never really been secure in my sense of self and it has kept me from many opportunities and relationships. since being with KidTerror i've come to see that it is a legitimate problem that needs to be addressed. it's not something that i can ignore or make jokes about and it didn't even hit home until recently when i saw how it was straining things with KidTerror.

i had been selfish and taking my negative emotions out on him. once we talked about it (after i had been an ass-hat) i felt awful naturally and it hit home but it didn't really take root until today when i lashed out at him again.

although i flirted with the idea of seeking help last semester when i started seeing a therapist at school, it didn't really stick and i stopped going. i didn't trust who i was seeing and the trouble of seeing someone else was too stressful to really execute.

this time i'm going to seek some medical solution even though i have an aversion to any medical inference in my life. it's not that i'm against seeking medical help it's just dealing with the steps leading up to seeing the doctor that make me anxious, although i don't like the actual visits either.

assuming i get my financial aid appeal, i will continue to attend class. i thought about taking some time off but i know getting further behind in school will only stress me further. i also don't like the idea that i'm keeping KidTerror and i from moving on to better things and places.

this semester will be about me getting things together, i will finish my math requirements, get my P.E. credit, work on my art and work on myself all while working full-time and doing my absolute best to show KidTerror how much i love him. it's a pretty tall order to fill but i don't want to give up, i do that too often and i don't want to be beaten. my desire to win at life is pretty strong and i'm tenacious, when need be, so i think it's doable even though it will be extremely difficult.


bleh to all that drama, and onto sunnier topics!

although the massive amount of students in my sculpture class make me nervous and even more withdrawn i am excited about the projects. three projects are required, an additive piece done in class, a subtractive piece in wood or plaster, and a collection piece that will be compiled with the material of the artists choosing.

for my first piece i want to try and sculpt something that has several individual components that come together like a puzzle. it's a pretty difficult thing to construct when the material i will be working with is clay. i'm worried that i won't get the precise fit of the pieces that i need once the pieces shrink in the kiln. i suppose i could create a hollow shape and before the clay is dry cut my shapes out but i want my piece to be more complex than a cookie-cutter idea like that. it will be something that i'll have to work out with the clay itself. although the exact design is up in the air i know that i want each individual part of the sculpture to have a different color glaze. i'm excited to try and work out what i want. the other idea i have is to create faces with clay using a styrofoam head as a type of dress form in which to built upon. i feel like that was explained well but i would be covering the head in saran wrap and then removing the face after the clay had hardened some, kind of like making a garment of clothing on a dress form. after i had a collection of faces i would probably use them in a kinetic piece like a mobile, or as parts of my final project.

i'm less enthusiastic about the subtractive project since i don't have any experience there other than making a print block in high school. i don't even know what material i would like to work with and i'm slightly scared about injuring myself with the carving tools. i'm going to try and stay open to the new medium and who knows i may really like it.

since my final project is a collection of items i need to start thinking of items that would be suitable and i've come up with the idea of creating a figure around an armature that is made up of crocheted and knitted fine wire. i thought of this because i would like my figure to be female and i think that using the fine wire as a cloth would hold feminine curves better and showcase my materials in an interesting way. i think the feminine subject and the way in which the sculpture is constructed will have a nice contrast with the wire. a feminine/masculine contrast that i think would be pleasing and representational of what i want to achieve in that class and how i want to be perceived. it will be the first time i do something of that nature so i really want to nail the execution. other details are still up in the air, such as adding organs or clothing and the type of wire to use, but i'm sure i'll decide before the end of the semester gets here.

since i didn't go to my painting studio class i don't really have much to say other than i want to improve my painting skills and test out oils in my free-time. i need to stop letting my lack of ability to create what i see in my mind from keeping me from improving my skills. if i can work towards the goal of painting often i know that i can improve my skills and become more confident in my art.

this will mean coming to class everyday, accepting criticism, working with my professors, and not stopping working when i encounter a harsh word directed at my art or when something doesn't come out quite right. like everything it will be hard but i'm ready to commit to to my role as an artist and an art student. who knows i may even post more things here ^^

sorry for the wordy-ness, it's been a hard day but i'm not giving up! dollface kisses to all who read, i know you are a tiny bunch but it's greatly appreciated <3

P.S. forgive any mistakes, i really didn't care to re-read this post, writing it was enough!


real world injection

working full-time and going to school at the same time is not something i recommend if you can avoid it. today was the first day back and i'm already exhausted, but i'm optimistic about the semester, the spring always feels so hopeful; i want to keep this feeling going until the summer.

i'm taking a math course, sculpture studio, painting studio, and a wellness course. everything promises to be manageable although i know just keeping up with everything and going to class will be the most difficult part. i'm also happy to note that i have the same math prof as last semester! he's a great teacher who is really invested in his students; for some students i would imagine that would be annoying but i find it touching and it makes me want to do better. i'm kinda a sucker for teachers that care, i thinks that's why i like my adviser so much; she's pretty dingy but she's honest with me, helps me out of university drama, and is encouraging without being fake, she also rocks bitchin' cat sweaters lol.

i have discovered two energy drinks that i don't hate, arizona green tea energy drink and redbull cola. i was pretty skeptical about both of them but they were so cheap at biglots that KidTerror and i bought them all!!! we tend to go a bit crazy in that store but it's to be expected when there are so many awesome bargains.

i'm happy to announce that the dolly sausage-fest in my house is coming to a close! i am trading the boy body i have for a girl one and i just bought a head from dollmore. you can see the head here, i would like to note that my flocke will not be blond. i plan on giving her a black wig and her eyes will have to come from my eye-bag since i'm trying not to buy a lot of dolly stuff until i can sell one of the dolls i have for sale. i really love flocke's sullen little face, although i didn't see the potential the sculpt had until this limited doll. i had planned on getting panda's bf's head next or lucan's girlfriend but the trade worked out so well that i had to scoop up the opportunity. i'm also proud to say that i didn't go crazy on the dollmore site either, all the head is coming with will be a pair of boots and a wig, and i hope i get some freebies.

this weekend cannot get here fast enough! i plan on being as lazy as possible and catching up on sleep.

bleh that's all i have for now, i'm ready to see what tomorrows classes will bring!

P.S. i love you KidTerror!!!

EDIT: not finishing that meme *tee hee*


days five and six

ha ha well i totally missed a day doing this meme but i'm gonna make up for the lost time.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
1. kept dating someone even though i knew it wasn't what i wanted.
2. cut my hair off.
3.been lazy with school-work.
4. stopped talking to some people.
5. quitting a job (i once quit working somewhere even though i didn't have another job lined up...)
6. every fight that KidTerror and i have had.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
1. KidTerror
2. my twin sister
3. my dad
4. my mammi
5. my step-mom

yeah! i'm all caught up, huzzah! AND i finished my student aid crap for now since my adviser decided not to be available before school starts. AND i painted some today. all this activity can be contributed to the fact that KidTerror woke me up this morning, no sleep monster today, although i'm already starting to get sleepy....meh that's what energy drinks are for ^^

BEHOLD! an hours worth of painting, it's ten different kinds of suck but i like it.


day four

oooh~ shiny new blog layout ^^ the background image is mine, it's a crappy painting i did XD so don't judge, i like it because it's green =_="

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. worrying about money, i have a fulltime job but i still constantly stress over finances and i worry that i'll never get to retire.
2. doll plans, i like to collect dolls according to a structured plan.
3. KidTerror, he's always on my mind <3
4. whether or not i should stick with being an art major.
5. moving out of texas or to a different country.
6. making time to relax.
7. cats, yes, cats. i really want one but have developed an allergy due to not having one for a long time.

ahh this weekend has been nice. i'm currently relaxing in my pj's with a lime vanilla coke and the internet so all is well. i checked out my art books last night and they have alot of things to spark my interest in them so i may get motivated and paint today if not then i'm not really bothered, i like to take my time. i really like the new blog layout, i think it's much more "me." it's very green, which i love and more eye-catching than the last one i had. not much right now other than speculating about painting and being lazy. here's some pics of my boys though ^^




day three

i'm so glad it's the weekend....this past week felt like it would never end. despite the financial aid drama that i found out about on thursday, i've had a pretty good weekend and spent the day with my sister and Ace (<--long time friend). i even bought some art related books to get some creative action going but who knows if that will do the trick XP

i'm continuing the meme that i stole from another blog ^^

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

1. make me laugh, i'm easily amused so this isn't hard but it's a must.
2. encourage my hobbies, i love that KidTerror is supportive in my doll hobby and my knitting hobby, it makes it more fun to have someone be supportive.
3. don't rush me, it only makes me angry.
4. be supportive when i'm in a mood, it happens just be prepared to deal with it.
5. be genuine, because i can spot fake people a mile away.
6. have your own interests and opinions, jumping in on all the things i like is creepy.
7. don't let me stay in a funk, my moods don't dissipate they just fester like something infected if left unattended.
8. don't play mind-games, it's not very trustworthy and it's cruel.


sleepy...DAY TWO

i'm going to continue with this list.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself:

1. i never really wanted to get married until i met KidTerror.
2. i love collecting abjd's and think it's a really great hobby to have.
3. i have a hair coloring addiction, it's hard for me to keep one color for any longer than 2 months.
4. i'm a horrible dresser although i love to dress my dolls.
5. i'm on a quest to find an energy drink that i don't hate.
6. i think religion is stupid and detrimental.
7. i have an intense love/hate relationship with art.
8. i knit but not as much as i should.
9. i am nearly always grumpy.

meh i'm tired and that's all i really have to say XP


interesting, me thinks...DAY ONE

i found something that i thought would be fun to do and that would get me posting more and since it gets my mind off of the recent financial aid drama that has popped up with tarleton yet again....

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.

here goes:

1. i feel bad that i never see you, and every time that i get to i'm reminded of this and it's sad. sometimes i think that i don't even really have a reason not to, it just kinda ends up that way. but i'm going to try and make more time to come see you, since we have something new in common.
2. i know this is odd coming from me but you need to get out there and meet some ladies, maybe have a few one-nighters, i normally wouldn't say that but as i know you longer the more i want to get you outta your funk!
3. i don't think we can ever really exist in harmony, you've made me mad and hurt me many times and never said sorry so i'm going to be over here doing my thing and i would rather you keep to your side and do yours.
4. we should talk more, i know we're both busy but after a certain period of not seeing you i think that excuse falls flat, that being said yay for us making plans this saturday!
5. don't be afraid of offending people or saying what you feel, i know i'm not one to talk but i wish you'd stand up more for yourself and value yourself more.
6. yeah i'm probably overacting about the falling out we had but i refuse to be the bottom of the barrel for you, if i'm friends with someone i don't want to be the one they talk to as a last resort. that's insulting and really revealing of how you viewed our relationship.
7. i'm sorry i make you worry and that i don't visit enough. i do think of you everyday though and i'm always out to make you proud.
8. i'm so happy with the life changes you've had this past year! i'm happy to see you with someone who understands you and let's you be the vibrant, creative, snarky, and kind person you are.
9. i have no excuse not to come and see you weekly, i'm going to try and work on that since we always have fun together.
10. thank you so much for putting up with me. i know that sounds crude and uninspired but i know it's alot of work and i appreciate it everyday. i love that we're best friends.

and because dolly spam is always permissible, here's some Panda(monium)


this new year feels the same as the old XD

i'm not feeling the new year so far but i think that has to do with how much a drank on new years and how i've been made to come to work early too many times to count in the past two weeks....

ahh a new year, it really doesn't mean much for me but i do like that it's another year that i'll be with Kid Terror (i hope to have MANY more years with him) although he told me recently that i seem to be a person that would die first....yeah....but it did make me laugh so i guess he's doing his part to keep me alive for a while.

many people make new years resolutions (that they rarely keep) so mine are more like vague wishes: i want to keep growing out my hair (currently working on that one), i want to acquire some more dolls (need to sell some stuff first), those are the only actual things since the others are more vague, hooray for the ambiguity queen! the other things are mostly about school and how i need to settle on a career path. i'm currently art but have thought about going to the special education route (although i'm afraid of burnout, i'm currently experiencing a bit of that with my job, so i don't know if making a career out of it would be the best bet).

keeping in tradition with random organizational style i like to keep while blogging, i refreshed my hair last night. it's a lovely shade of red that makes my roots blend better. i also learned to keep my brand loyalty, manic panic can't compare to any other alternative hair color i've used and i don't intend to stray for quite some time.

jumping back to the new year crap, i would like to get a tattoo (or more than one) this year. i consider this a pretty big goal due to the fact that i am notoriously picky, but i think once i get my first one any others won't be hard to think up.

bleh that's all i feel like doing, i'm sleepy from coming into work early and feel lazy =_=''