a-kon planning

i just started seriously preparing for a-kon coming up next week and it is crazy. KidTerror will be attending with me as well as 3 friends and one random person whom i don't really care to become acquainted with.

both room reservations (at different hotels) are reserved in my name and that is something that i most likely won't do again. it means that i have to have a total of 779.70 in my account when i go to check in, that normally isn't a biggie but it kinda sucks since i have to round up money. the next time i go i'm going to delegate things out so that i'm not the one booking the hotel and being responsible for most of the money handling.

KidTerror was added to the bunch recently and i'm super happy he's going with me, i think i'll have even more fun with him there and we'll have a hotel room to ourselves which will be pleasant.

i'm anticipating a good trip and i'm going to work to try and make it as stress free as possible, my only wishes so far are that i had let KidTerror on the list earlier (things would be way cheaper) and that i saved more money. the good thing is i've already paid all my bills for the month except rent, so it will be ok to be poor during the rest of june....

a little note on my eyebrow shaving experiment....don't shave your eyebrows because you will look odd without them and it take a while for them to grow back in.....

pleasant weekend with the family

so far my spring break has been super pleasant! right now i'm visiting my family in the boonies and i've been enjoying my little sister immensely. she's nearly 4 so she's at a really fun age. we've spent the weekend in our pj's, napping together, coloring, and watching movies. she also told me that i need to visit her more and to bring my dolls next time since they, "miss her," she said. all in all my weekend has been restful and great, that being said i'm looking forward to heading home tomorrow to see KidTerror (mwah~), pack up some dolls to ship out, and to re-color my hair.

going home this weekend has been my good luck charm for selling dolls, i was able to sell both my dollmore girls to one person and i have another user interested in my big dollshe boy. it will be so nice to get my doll area a little less cluttered. the extra hobby money is also a big plus too, but since i don't have any immediate doll plans or alot of time to play with my current ones, i think i'm going to try and wait on finishing my group. the total of 7 is now back to 4, with all of them being boys. i just don't bond with girl dolls like i do the boys, they don't have the 'pull' like my boys do. since i've been more active in the doll community i've been missing Lucan and Panda, so it will be nice to see them tomorrow in addition to all the other nice things waiting for me at home.

right now i only have two more dolls planned, a suntan dollmore pado boy, who is a definite, since he was one of the ones i wanted when i chose Lucan. the other doll that i'm thinking about is either a u-jee or a paran boy to be Panda's boyfriend.. its hard for me to decide between the two since i'm not sure if i truly like u-jee's eyes.....the paran sculpt has extra appeal since he would be a tiny bit more feminine that Panda (yes it is possible for that to be so). the more i think about it the more paran seems the better option, but i'm going to try and give it some more time before i click the 'buy' button, the same goes with the suntan pado, although he is a definite purchase, i may spoil myself with him when the first summer session of classes starts, but i'm going to try and be good and thin out my doll stuff and try and sell some it so when i bring the last two home, the area they live in won't be a mess......i know it's alot of fuss over pretty pieces of plastic but i truly enjoy them so fussing over them is fun for me.

when i dye my hair tomorrow-ish i'm going to try and be thrifty and use the red colors that i already have at home. i'm not too sure how they will take with the little of blue i still have in my hair but i'm pretty sure that the red will overpower the blue. or i may get a nice gradient effect where my hair starts purple and fades to pinkish red. who knows! i like that about doing my hair, not knowing exactly how my hair will take the dye is always a nice suprise.

that's all i really have for now, i'm looking a lazy start in the morning, goodbyes to my dad and baby sister, and then heading home~

babies are false advertising

i hear a lot about people having babies and getting married and truthfully i'm glad i'm not there. KidTerror and i are engaged and committed but having babies is the last thing on my mind....babies are cute and all i suppose but to take on that responsibility at this point in my life fills me full of sheer terror.

i dunno where all that mess came from but it's probably inspired from all the stuff on fb. bleh babies.

it's the 3rd snow day and tomorrow will be the fourth.....i'm over it. not having water in my kitchen is maddening and i'm tired of being cold all the time.

i put the issac head up for sale, i feel bad about it since i was excited when i bought it but i have to remember that it was on impulse and once i remember that i don't feel bad anymore. i'm going to try and not stray from my dolly plans anymore since it never works out.

boring post.....i think i'll knit.

crumminess with a touch of mental malaise

i never re-read my posts, for me it feels taboo and the thought of doing so makes me uncomfortable. i prefer not to recall things i've written and done. acknowledgment for just about anything feels like being ambushed.

i feel worn out and angry bleh. i thought about blogging about it decided not to.

kisses KidTerror<3<3<3<3

maybe a change of hair will make me feel better.....that or murder, or drugs, or dare i say it, hookers?

meh nix all that....here's a picture of lucan....

even though he's just a hunk of plastic i love him <3

ugh

first of all, this week feels like it's dragging on and i'm ready for the weekend and sleeping late so i wish it would hurry up!

right now i'm sitting at work, everything has been done and since there's nothing to do this is the time when i normally do my homework, and being the good student i am (<- working on it) i have all my math homework, notes and book ready to go. all that would be wonderful and i would happily work on my math homework but me being the dumb-ass i am left my calculator at home *le sigh* sometimes i wish my responsible side would give the ditzy side of me a stern talking to and maybe rough her up, but knowing her she'd probably just forget about it the next day....

in other news, i'm proud to say that i attended both my art classes! for some that's not saying much but for me it's a pretty dig deal. it's not like i dislike my major it's just that being squished into a tiny studio with people who i don't know (rude people) is really uncomfortable to say the least. luckily i was able to expel all my rage and anxiety towards my clay which is now nicely wedged and ready to work up on friday.

turns out that the first project in sculpture is a bust and i don't mean breasts and a torso like many people have speculated, contains only (in this case) the shoulders and head. i'm a little frightened of this project but i'm going to try to pay attention and make sure that i have an idea of what i'm doing before i go off and mess something up.

since i managed to go to painting as well i was a little surprised to see that nearly everyone favors a realistic style of painting figures. i know that is what a limited art program like mine stresses but in a class where there's not lesson plans and free-paint is always the assignment, it was hard to believe that no one had really taken on a style or did things outside of the norm. that's not to say that there weren't any people that deviated from normal human proportions but they were a small population indeed.

i also noted that although that class is large: most of the people don't show up and the ones that do are very quiet so it's a pretty peaceful place once i put in my earbuds and tune out all noise. i think as long as i keep my mp3 player handy and make sure to stake out a good spot each day i won't have any problems. if my prof. starts making assignments then i may change my mind....

still rambling about painting......i started another painting today and i HATE it! while the color combination POPS well the composition leaves alot to be desired....i made the mistake of going to class with a blank canvas instead of planning and sketching at home before bringing it to class. that's something that i do to myself often, but this time i'll blame it on being busy and having a cluttered workspace....

blabbing on, i can't hold on to painting ideas for shit. it really is pretty bad but i've been knocking around the idea of an octopus girl (KidTerror would be excited if he read this). she would be all human but have the octopus and its tentacles function as her hair/hat...eh it's all i bit muddled but it's something that i've been knocking around for a while (think 6+ months), i don't think i've attempted it because i'm worried that i won't be able to get it to look right or people will just look and say "what's that?" meh who knows i may attempt it this semester when i have a few more paintings done that i feel fine with.

doll news~~~ my flocke head shipped! i didn't even noticed because i've been so busy but i'm pretty excited, i also made the second payment for my isaac girl and can't wait to work on them and get them ready for DoA. these will be my first girls from dollmore and i really think that they will work out, although the isaac head is the only one that i'm the tiniest bit iffy about, but i'm sure with the right face, name, wig, eyes, and clothes that she'll be much loved like Lucan and Panda(monium).

since i'm all over the place as usual, i'm dyeing my hair again this weekend! my roots are horrid looking so i'll have to re-bleach and then re-color. i don't know what color i'll be next. the pinks from 'beyond the zone' sucked the big one when i used them so i'm tempted to just chunk out those colors since i didn't like them and don't plan on going pink anytime soon (sorry carrie but it washing me out bad). other colors i have considered are teal, orange, and purple. come to think of it all those colors sound pretty sweet so i'll most likely just pick at random when i make a trip to sallys. random gripe but the sallys girls all look at me like i'm crazy when i go buy bleach and color, i always get the, "don't you know this damages your hair?" and, "do you know how to use these?" both those questions annoy me. yes ma'am i do know this is damaging to my hair but your poorly drawn on eyebrows and lip hair hurt me so i would appreciate it if you keep your dumb comments to yourself. yeah i'm not so mean as to say that but some days it is something that crosses my mind....MORE RANT, and you would think they would remember me i'm in there at least twice a month and have a sallys card and inquire often about products but hey some people are just as observant as cattle......meh.

damn my posts are long these days....um kitty niles you hooker you promise to read but comments i do not see.....and carrie i hope i get to see the occasional post from you (they always brighten my day) and thank you for recommending Margaret and Helen

interesting kinda bad day...

today has been odd. the entire day i've felt like the entire world is vibrating, it's a feeling that's i notice in my vision and in my hearing (sounds like a dull buzzing). i don't like it, i've also felt nauseous =_='' and being super nervous and busy hasn't helped it (i went to both of my art classes and made conversation with someone in the last one XD).

work has been tiring, even though everyone is asleep, and i've finished all my work stuff i don't feel like i can be at piece, i think it comes from having an odd morning and going to all my classes. i don't even feel up to doing some art homework and looking over tomorrows math lesson....

days when i'm busy and out of the house make me LONG to be home. i love feeling safe and secure amongst all my belongings and KidTerror; i think i've come to like staying home too much....

although i started off last week with a sunny disposition, a full day of art class kinda killed that for me. i hate feeling angry at all the people around me for no reason, it's ridiculous and rude. i tend to automatically categorize people and it sucks, it affects all aspects of my life and i wish it was a switch i could turn off. i don't consider myself hateful but i can and do think hateful thoughts. i guess it's a positive sign that i recognize that thinking ill of people for no reason is wrong but some days i have a hard time drawing the line between snarky (humorous) and mean. it really upsets KidTerror and i'm just recently noticing how much i do it.

bleh this post is really a downer.....let's see something positive.....meh i think getting to see KidTerror in a few hours is it for now....

<3

*tsk tsk*

i was thinking about how i claim to be a knitter, and sadly realized that i hardly ever knit anymore. i only note it with sadness because it's something i find really relaxing and enjoyable as well as useful. i also re-visited the yarnharlot and it made me even more sad, i used to keep up with every post she put up and i don't think that i ever visited it this past year.

in fact i can't really remember the last time i finished a project...(although i am very close to finishing a scarf)...i also don't visit ravelry often, and the last time i did i didn't do much besides look at my inbox and then log back out again.

i imagine this absence from the knitting world can be largely attributed to my lack of free-time, my full-time job, and my ever growing obsession with my dolls, not to mention that the local yarn availability leaves much to be desired (i'm looking at you flying needle, you bunch of quilting old biddies! ha ha ha i won't even get started on your overpriced are supplies!).

all this random talk about knitting is due to the fact that i really want to get back in that hobby. with all the stress that i'm dealing with this semester and the constant stress of work, i want to reclaim a little bit of my sanity and i think that knitting would be a wonderful outlet to do so.

so to cut this short, i'm going to go buy some yarn on the internet <3 <3 <3

real world injection

working full-time and going to school at the same time is not something i recommend if you can avoid it. today was the first day back and i'm already exhausted, but i'm optimistic about the semester, the spring always feels so hopeful; i want to keep this feeling going until the summer.

i'm taking a math course, sculpture studio, painting studio, and a wellness course. everything promises to be manageable although i know just keeping up with everything and going to class will be the most difficult part. i'm also happy to note that i have the same math prof as last semester! he's a great teacher who is really invested in his students; for some students i would imagine that would be annoying but i find it touching and it makes me want to do better. i'm kinda a sucker for teachers that care, i thinks that's why i like my adviser so much; she's pretty dingy but she's honest with me, helps me out of university drama, and is encouraging without being fake, she also rocks bitchin' cat sweaters lol.

i have discovered two energy drinks that i don't hate, arizona green tea energy drink and redbull cola. i was pretty skeptical about both of them but they were so cheap at biglots that KidTerror and i bought them all!!! we tend to go a bit crazy in that store but it's to be expected when there are so many awesome bargains.

i'm happy to announce that the dolly sausage-fest in my house is coming to a close! i am trading the boy body i have for a girl one and i just bought a head from dollmore. you can see the head here, i would like to note that my flocke will not be blond. i plan on giving her a black wig and her eyes will have to come from my eye-bag since i'm trying not to buy a lot of dolly stuff until i can sell one of the dolls i have for sale. i really love flocke's sullen little face, although i didn't see the potential the sculpt had until this limited doll. i had planned on getting panda's bf's head next or lucan's girlfriend but the trade worked out so well that i had to scoop up the opportunity. i'm also proud to say that i didn't go crazy on the dollmore site either, all the head is coming with will be a pair of boots and a wig, and i hope i get some freebies.

this weekend cannot get here fast enough! i plan on being as lazy as possible and catching up on sleep.

bleh that's all i have for now, i'm ready to see what tomorrows classes will bring!

P.S. i love you KidTerror!!!

EDIT: not finishing that meme *tee hee*

days five and six

ha ha well i totally missed a day doing this meme but i'm gonna make up for the lost time.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
1. kept dating someone even though i knew it wasn't what i wanted.
2. cut my hair off.
3.been lazy with school-work.
4. stopped talking to some people.
5. quitting a job (i once quit working somewhere even though i didn't have another job lined up...)
6. every fight that KidTerror and i have had.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
1. KidTerror
2. my twin sister
3. my dad
4. my mammi
5. my step-mom

yeah! i'm all caught up, huzzah! AND i finished my student aid crap for now since my adviser decided not to be available before school starts. AND i painted some today. all this activity can be contributed to the fact that KidTerror woke me up this morning, no sleep monster today, although i'm already starting to get sleepy....meh that's what energy drinks are for ^^

BEHOLD! an hours worth of painting, it's ten different kinds of suck but i like it.

day three

i'm so glad it's the weekend....this past week felt like it would never end. despite the financial aid drama that i found out about on thursday, i've had a pretty good weekend and spent the day with my sister and Ace (<--long time friend). i even bought some art related books to get some creative action going but who knows if that will do the trick XP

i'm continuing the meme that i stole from another blog ^^

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

1. make me laugh, i'm easily amused so this isn't hard but it's a must.
2. encourage my hobbies, i love that KidTerror is supportive in my doll hobby and my knitting hobby, it makes it more fun to have someone be supportive.
3. don't rush me, it only makes me angry.
4. be supportive when i'm in a mood, it happens just be prepared to deal with it.
5. be genuine, because i can spot fake people a mile away.
6. have your own interests and opinions, jumping in on all the things i like is creepy.
7. don't let me stay in a funk, my moods don't dissipate they just fester like something infected if left unattended.
8. don't play mind-games, it's not very trustworthy and it's cruel.

sleepy...DAY TWO

i'm going to continue with this list.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself:

1. i never really wanted to get married until i met KidTerror.
2. i love collecting abjd's and think it's a really great hobby to have.
3. i have a hair coloring addiction, it's hard for me to keep one color for any longer than 2 months.
4. i'm a horrible dresser although i love to dress my dolls.
5. i'm on a quest to find an energy drink that i don't hate.
6. i think religion is stupid and detrimental.
7. i have an intense love/hate relationship with art.
8. i knit but not as much as i should.
9. i am nearly always grumpy.

meh i'm tired and that's all i really have to say XP

interesting, me thinks...DAY ONE

i found something that i thought would be fun to do and that would get me posting more and since it gets my mind off of the recent financial aid drama that has popped up with tarleton yet again....

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.

here goes:

1. i feel bad that i never see you, and every time that i get to i'm reminded of this and it's sad. sometimes i think that i don't even really have a reason not to, it just kinda ends up that way. but i'm going to try and make more time to come see you, since we have something new in common.
2. i know this is odd coming from me but you need to get out there and meet some ladies, maybe have a few one-nighters, i normally wouldn't say that but as i know you longer the more i want to get you outta your funk!
3. i don't think we can ever really exist in harmony, you've made me mad and hurt me many times and never said sorry so i'm going to be over here doing my thing and i would rather you keep to your side and do yours.
4. we should talk more, i know we're both busy but after a certain period of not seeing you i think that excuse falls flat, that being said yay for us making plans this saturday!
5. don't be afraid of offending people or saying what you feel, i know i'm not one to talk but i wish you'd stand up more for yourself and value yourself more.
6. yeah i'm probably overacting about the falling out we had but i refuse to be the bottom of the barrel for you, if i'm friends with someone i don't want to be the one they talk to as a last resort. that's insulting and really revealing of how you viewed our relationship.
7. i'm sorry i make you worry and that i don't visit enough. i do think of you everyday though and i'm always out to make you proud.
8. i'm so happy with the life changes you've had this past year! i'm happy to see you with someone who understands you and let's you be the vibrant, creative, snarky, and kind person you are.
9. i have no excuse not to come and see you weekly, i'm going to try and work on that since we always have fun together.
10. thank you so much for putting up with me. i know that sounds crude and uninspired but i know it's alot of work and i appreciate it everyday. i love that we're best friends.

and because dolly spam is always permissible, here's some Panda(monium)

i blame my lack of posts on zombies...

blargh, i never blog!!! probably because not many people read, but i guess that's cool since i don't like people up in my business anyways...

for the moment i am free from the constraints of school and to be truly honest i'm getting bored. i don't want to be overstressed like i was last semester (btw i made B's in all my classes except one!), but i would prefer some more stimulation than has been offered lately. maybe i should make myself paint something, hmmmm maybe....

Kid Terror and I had a kick-ass x-mas! we both hauled it in and didn't have to travel too much so that is always a definite plus. the only drawbacks was that there were so many x-mas celebrations between us that it was old when the last one started, although i was all x-mased out before the holiday as i am a grinch when it comes to x-mas.

other news....Kid Terror and I have confirmed that our house is too small! we had suspicions that it was when we moved (i say 'we' Kid Terror knew, i was just 'YEAH HOUSE ^o^'), it became a bigger problem after the epic x-mas haul so we plan on cleaning out this weekend, after the possible drunken stupor of new years eve wears off....yeah booze~

something else noteworthy, i have nearly been working at my current job for a year! it seems like my time with my quirky group of clients has gone by so fast. it's been full of a lot of up's and down's although i wouldn't change any of it. my clients have also made several milestones themselves and i'm so proud of all of them. i really love my job and will be sad to leave it one day. i except it to be akin to sending children out into the world, i'll wonder if they are being taken care of: if the new staff is making sure that they eat properly, if they are being taken out on outings, if they are getting enough attention, and if they are remembering their manners...basically a HUGE list of things to worry about but i guess that just means that i care which is what they deserve.

the doll hobby is still going strong, and i've fleshed out my two current dolls some more and determined that big dolls are not for me (way to go me, make a super expensive mistake...). i've also found that once i discovered my size range that the hobby is much more relaxing and fun, it's also way easier to plan my next ones (Panda's BF- DM U-Jee, Lucan's GF- DM Tan Paran, a DM Flocke or Sona, and a DM Tan Pado boy).....no i don't have a problem ^_~

my current hair color is similar to manic panic's "new rose" color although i have more variations in color. my hair is also still growing out and i think that keeping the crazy colors has been the only thing keeping my hair from the chopping block.

mmm well that's all for now...i'm off to look at PC games to buy, whiten my teeth, and paint my nails (can you tell which one doesn't fit?).

yeah..... Lucan totally knows he's awesome ^^"

LIFE ATTACK!

yeah life kicks my ass once again. i've bit off more than i can handle by trying to go to school full-time and work a full-time job and i'm suffering for it. i need to make something to remind myself of past follies before i go putting on my optimism goggles and tread head off the metaphorical cliff. it seems to happen to me too often, and i never learn.

i feel like taking a semester off would be too much so i'm going to try and save money so that i can afford to pay for at least two classes on my own if financial aid won't foot the bill. Kid Terror is thinking that he'll do something similar since we'll be moving again soon....but it's a good move so no worries ^^

good news....hmmm well i have my dream doll on order and i have direction with the rest of my collection which is wonderful even if it seems like the only part of my life that contains clarity. the more i get bogged down in things the more i appreciate the ABJD hobby and the peace of mind it gives me, i find it even more relaxing than knitting or painting because i can leave my dolls looking beautiful for weeks and not have to worry about fiddling with them.

MORE good news, my hair is back to being colorful and i'm so happy that i went back, being brown is just not for me. i feel like having normal hair makes my outlook on life all the more pessimistic; i think this is due to the fact that i'm not expressing how i would like to look but hey what do i know i'm not a psychology major.

that's the abridged version of what's been going down since i last posted. the real deal is much more juicy but has become muddled with the passage of time and i rather not rehash it since i just got through living it....

doll pictures to come when i finish my newest mini boy and get the big doll in~

birthday-eve

tomorrow is my birthday, huzzah! even though i'm not super pumped i'm trying to be because it's a pretty big one and even though i will spend it at work, instead of out boozing it up legally i figure i should be excited.

i have my suspicions that Kid Terror is more excited about my birthday that i am, for him it will mean that he won't have to buy me booze, i can have (more) fun when we go out, and that he can give me all the presents that he's chosen for me, he really loves to buy presents so this is a biggie and a reason why he's such a sweetheart!

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the first week of school was a wee-bit rough for both Kid Terror and myself, financial aid seems intent on ruining our lives but we seem to have beaten the beast back for the time being so everything is dandy there. classes seem to be easy this semester and i'm determined to go to every class because in doing so i've shown genuine effort and professors think about that when they grade things and i want this semester to kick ass so i'm going to try and put in the hours.

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that's all i really had since i've last posted it's all been pretty common place stuff and not really interesting so i'd rather not bore you.

life tends to be a time-eater

well it's been a while since i've posted and that's mainly due to being busy. this summer has flown by and i'm ready for the fall.

i registered for classes this semester even though i had planned to take a whole year off from my studies. i figured that this semester was as good as next spring especially since i have the chance to take drawing 1 with KidTerror again (that's where we met so it's a big deal that we get to take it again together). even though i'm registered the fate of my educational career rests largely on the benevolence of the financial aid appeal committee. i withdrew in the spring because i thought that the consequences would be less than if i stayed in and failed a few classes but i was horribly wrong on that idea. so far that decision has turned out to be the worst one that i have made in my higher education career and i now know not to trust the student clerks that work in all of the offices but to actually talk to someone in charge of something, because i was screwed over royally.

all that being said, i really want to go back this semester and get closer to being done. even though life is just one big transitory state i'm ready for the college years to be behind me and those type of everyday headaches to cease.

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random stuff:

• i'm still growing out my hair and it's to the stage that it doesn't look absolutely horrible worn down and i can pin it up if i see fit. it is also brown again since the crazy colors nearly ruined it, i figure i can spice it up again when i have a little more length.
• KidTerror had a birthday and i learned again, what i seem to forget every birthday/christmas/ valentines, that i need to budget better for his gifts and start shopping early. this year he will beat me on birthday presents but i won on our anniversary! it's a toss up for christmas though....
• i'm trying to think positive for friday and therefore i'm plotting what i would do with refund money and i think that if i get enough i want to buy my dream doll a Dollshe DSAM 35 Saint in oriental skin with the optional SA face; he will cost a pretty penny but i've wanted him for years now so i think that he would be a good purchase for me to make WHEN i get my refund (positive thinking, that's the ticket).
• my job is going well and my school schedule will work for it even though that will mean that i have to go to bed as soon as i get home every night but that will be fine since i imagine that i will be tired from all the walking around that i plan on doing. i also have a new co-worker who i'll refer to as DZ, she's super nice and we get along really well, so coming to work is even nicer than it normally is....

• i want a chococat tattoo, i know it's so adolescent of me but it would represent my love of cats, japan, hello kitty, and cute things all in one. it would also be super girly and i do so love girly things....only problem is where to get it?

that's all i really have at the moment as i'm having everything ride on friday....come on financial aid....

Proper planning prevents piss poor performance.

well....i've been busy lately.

Kid Terror and i are officially moved out of the apt! it's all kinds of awesome but it was hell getting out of there, utter hell. that being said it was our own doing so we shouldn't get any sympathy. it's like my dad says,"slim, remember your six p's, proper planning prevents piss poor performance." it's like to solution to all my life's woes, if i didn't procrastinate i would be awesome at life but what's the fun in that?

with getting out of the apt, we had to clean it and it was pretty foul, about three years of bachelor living filth had to be scoured. i approached the project with a pretty positive go get em' attitude but that quickly dispersed as the task was one of epic proportions. i don't think i've even cleaned so much or inhaled to many chemical fumes~~~ sad thing is we didn't even finish we gave up even with a day extension. so we're quitters but Kid Terror and i are cool with it since it was killing us. i even became sick due to exhaustion and had to miss work which is uncharacteristic of me.
all that business happened last week and we're glad to have washed our hands of it.
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news excluding the previous moving drama has been scant. yesterday was horrible and this week promises to not be to fab in general but i have health and dental insurance something that i haven't been able to boast of since primary school so yay! with that means that i need to make appointment and what-not which isn't pleasant. i hate talking to people in general so having to talk to them on the phone makes it worse since i can't see their face....oh and with insurance i can look into getting on something to help fix anxiety, huzzah. with stress recently i've seen my anxiety levels spike and since they have been increasing for a while now i think it's time to do something about it....
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here's some pics to make this post less boring for my imaginary readers...

Lucan being his usual self, but now with sweets.


and my favorite visual kei band, D.

sleepasaurous rex: king of all the sleeping lizards

Kid Terror and i have finally started the rent house search and so far it hasn't been really successful...the places that we've seen have all had issues. the first three we checked out looked like they were once meth labs, they were super scary with holes in the floor and walls. they also had a particularly pungent stench, and later we found out that they also had fleas....disturbing. the other two houses that we looked at last week both had issues that purged them from the list, one was way to far out of town and had a really inefficient layout; the other was super cheap and in a decent neighborhood but had two loud dogs belonging to the (nice) land-lady and it was fairly small. despite all the crap that we saw we're still optimistic that we'll find something soon.

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this just in, defensive driving is as close to torture that i'll probably ever have to experience.....it's dull in ways that i didn't know existed.....

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sleepasaurous rex: the king of all the sleeping lizards!!!! <---apparently i would also fall under this category

hair obsession

i don't have any obsessions except for my hair. Kid Terror will tell you that i have one for dolls but that's not true. i <3 my dolls but i just don't fiddle and obsess over them like my hair.

i've thought up a way that i can grow my hair out using manic panic hair-color products. since i now work in an environment that doesn't frown upon my affinity for crazy hair i'm able to enjoy my hair how i see fit.

growing my hair out in this fashion will take longer since i'll have to bleach the roots periodically but i think that i might be able to last the distance since my hair won't have to be a boring color throughout the process. that seems to be one of the problems i face when trying to do this, i get bogged down during the in-between ghastly-ness that occurs and boring color doesn't do anything to help my dilemma. i think by changing my hair up using manic panic i'll be able to grow my hair out where i can actually do things with it when i want and put it on top of my head when the fancy strikes. it's gonna up my cuteness factor for sure <3

i'm wearing aftermidnight blue and it's been fabulous, it's the most vibrant and stunning color i've done. probably because it's on my entire head instead of just a portion. it's messed up my hair a bit but as long i let it dry naturally and don't use heat to style it. i also take my vitamins and that seems to speed up the growth.

what it's going to come down to is patience and perseverance on my part, so expect hair updates from time to time. i'll post a pic of my faded aftermidnight blue hair later when i'm not looking so frumpy ^^

i'm going to stay blue for a while and after my hair grows some and i can put some more style back into it i'm going to probably go a two tone pink <3

dinosaur post

huzzah new blog!!! my last one kept being spammed by some creepers so hopefully this one will elude their grasp. i don't yet know the function of this blog and this indecision has been giving me some grief, it even kept me up a little last night. that being said it's not bad that i can't label my blog since i'm not too into labels myself, so the ambiguity of this endeavor is fitting.

what would you except to find here you ask? well i can say that there will be some knitting/crocheting/sewing, abjd's, occasional baking, the rare piece of art posted, the even more scare rant, real-life who-it's and whats-it's, and more nerdy things. so you're looking at a big slice of AWESOME! heh, i lied but with intent to astound you so it's all good.

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if you're an uber creeper-freaker then you're probably wondering what's going on in dollface's land. to be short, life is good. Kid Terror (the boyfriend) and i are super happy and we plan on renting a house this summer!!! we will be desperately poor and live off of ramen for a while but since we're some crazy kids in love we'll be fine. college has taken a hiatus due to stress and lack of interest; and will probably continue until i can pay the bastards back the money i owe them. Kid Terror in his wisdom regretted to inform me of what a dumb-bunny decision it was, sometimes he seems to forget that he's got a few years on me and that i may not know something is a bad idea. even so he's my favorite person so all faults are forgiven.

if you've read this far you are probably wondering, "where are the dinosaurs?" well my imaginary readers, it was all a RUSE!!!! bwahahahahahahahahahaha *ahem* i was alluding to the fact that i'm posting this from work and the computer i'm using is ancient, it's makes me appreciate my hand-me-down laptop. disappointed? bored with my revelation? if so, stuff you! meh lied again do what you will i'll still be here.....