a-kon planning

i just started seriously preparing for a-kon coming up next week and it is crazy. KidTerror will be attending with me as well as 3 friends and one random person whom i don't really care to become acquainted with.

both room reservations (at different hotels) are reserved in my name and that is something that i most likely won't do again. it means that i have to have a total of 779.70 in my account when i go to check in, that normally isn't a biggie but it kinda sucks since i have to round up money. the next time i go i'm going to delegate things out so that i'm not the one booking the hotel and being responsible for most of the money handling.

KidTerror was added to the bunch recently and i'm super happy he's going with me, i think i'll have even more fun with him there and we'll have a hotel room to ourselves which will be pleasant.

i'm anticipating a good trip and i'm going to work to try and make it as stress free as possible, my only wishes so far are that i had let KidTerror on the list earlier (things would be way cheaper) and that i saved more money. the good thing is i've already paid all my bills for the month except rent, so it will be ok to be poor during the rest of june....

a little note on my eyebrow shaving experiment....don't shave your eyebrows because you will look odd without them and it take a while for them to grow back in.....

new heights (or should i say lengths) in hair obsession....

as of a couple of weeks-ish ago i have started growing out my hair. this decision has created a HAIR OBSESSION for me......i am obsessed with growing out my hair and it has become an issue that i can't help but think about....and instead of trying to amuse myself and think about something else i'm just going to talk hair on here.

my hair care routine has grown a ton! but i also think that the quality of products i use are a lot better. i'm officially CO (conditioner-only) and my hair seems to be enjoying it so far. i also stopped brushing when wet and use my wide toothed comb instead. i also have purchased a BBB (boar bristle brush, to distribute oil and add shine) but turns out it has some nylon that my hair catches on so i will be replacing it soonish. coconut oil, and oils in general have become my friends, they may be product that has done the most for me so far.

my current hair goals are to continue to keep growing with minimal trims and no hair cuts for until i get to my desired length, around mid-back. i plan on doing this by protecting all the damaged parts by oiling, trying to keep my hair protected by wearing it up, researching homemade hair-care recipes, doing leave-in treatments weekly, and keeping a semi-permanent hair color in like a red hued manic panic dye.

while growing out my hair i'm going to stop bleaching the roots and allow my hair to rest for a couple of months to a year. lately i have done a ton of damage to my hair and i realized that if i want it to be long i have to start taking care of it.

that being said, i will still have some wild color in my hair but it will be limited to reds and purples, with the occasional blue used.

if i were to have any reasons to grow my hair out it would be that i'm ready to project a more feminine persona to others. i consider myself very feminine but understand that my hair doesn't really speak that and i would like to have it back again. other reasons include a feeling of security. although it has been a long time since i've had longer hair i do remember the sense of security it gave me as well. i also think that i'm able to actively grow my hair because i'm in a loving relationship with KidTerror. many if not most of my hair chops have come right after men troubles so being with KidTerror and knowing that we are a stable loving, and encouraging pair gives me the confidence to undertake this personal goal of mine. that being said i'm growing out my hair for ME, it just helps that i have a supportive and loving partner in KidTerror.

that's all i really have for now....hooray for goals!

ready for spring break.....

.....that being said i still have to work the whole time but at least i don't have school on top of work...

life has been tiring for me lately, i've felt really worn out so i think the break from school next week will really do me some good. i also plan on watching alot of tv and napping during the hours i'm off from work, so it promises to be fairly relaxing despite the 9 to 5, or in my case 4 to 12.

classes have been fine. i made a 96 on a surprise health midterm, which was awesome and have taken my first math test as well as completed my first sculpture project. wednesday i plan on casting plaster for my subtractive piece and then trying to come up with a design. it's the part that i'm not so excited about...

no new doll news. i have been neglecting them and have been toying with the idea of putting them back in their boxes for a while, since i've been too busy to fuss with them.

i do have news regarding my hair though! i mentioned a few posts back about trying oil treatments to help the condition of my hair and i tried two oils (forgive me if i already talked about the first one, i'm a wee bit grumpy and suffering from the headache that won't quit). the first one was olive oil and it didn't do anything, and it didn't smell very good. the second one i did was this past weekend and it was with coconut oil, it worked really well and smelled great (i love, love, LOVE coconut). it left my hair feeling very soft and manageable, i think i'm going to keep using this on the weekends for deep treatments and for everyday use as a sort of conditioner, shine-restorer, and hair protectorate. i don't really know if that last word was correct but i don't care enough to mess with it.

more on hair.....fading my blue to a color where i can put neon green over is a long process. the longer it takes the more i think about just dyeing over with a darker color. i'm trying to do it just by washing it normally but even that is taking a long time, and since my hair is damaged i don't need to be washing it alot since that creates alot of wear and tear on the hair. i'm thinking that the coconut oil will be the magic item that saves my hair during this time. i plan oiling my hair with coconut oil during the day so the damaged parts remain moisturized and then washing at night and re-oiling a tiny bit before bed as a sort of leave in conditioner. my hair is super porous so it should soak up most of the oil while i sleep. weekends will entail that i do a hot oil treatment and a normal shampoo and conditioner. i haven't decided if i'll oil as a leave in on the weekends since my hair doesn't really get too damaged then.....eh who knows....

i always feel like a dork rambling on about my hair but it's a hobby (i think it qualifies as one) that i enjoy a lot and that always perks me up.

other than the massive hair ramble i don't have much to add. today is a monday. i am ready to be done with work. i am grumpy. i miss KidTerror.

=_=''

cat vomit

this week has been a wee bit unpleasant so i though the title should reflect that and i think since cat vomit is really foul so it's pretty fitting to me.

i am off lexapro and on zoloft now or sertraline, which is the generic. i don't have anything to report about it so far since i start it tonight but i will definitely talk about it once i start it. i'm just hoping for no horrible migraines or nausea.

my aztec man bust is now more for the most part. due to the crappiness of the art departments tables he is severely disfigured and currently decapitated. the table collapsed just as i was about to get him ready to store. it happened in slow motion and i stood there shocked for a moment before the cursing commenced. i was so loud that my professor came to see what had happened. i hope she remembers this incident when she grades my final one.....

in painting there's nothing to report other than i need to paint more~

i am still sickly. i don't know how this mega-cold thing found me but i really wish it would leave as my nose is raw from blowing my nose and my throat is tired of being sore. i don't feel as bad as wednesday but i'm still not 100%.

i can't wait to get off from work in an hour and forty minutes-ish. i'm ready to pester KidTerror, try a new hair treatment, and maybe have a drink to cap off the crap-tastic week.

since KidTerror let me know that he does indeed read this, i would like to say thank you. thank you for putting up with my crazy moods, cheering me up, and being the better half of us. i really don't know where i would be without you.

shuffling on back to less mushy things (mwah sweety), i am super pumped about the new hair treatment i'm going to try out. its just warm olive oil (or coconut oil if you can find it) applied to dry hair and left to set. since i spend a lot on hair treatments and products it would be awesome to find something so cheap that actually works. the reviews online are glowing (especially for coconut oil, some claim it stimulates new hair growth, doubtful but interesting) so i think it's a safe bet for me to try it. it even got good marks on the alternative hair forum i lurk in. so if it work i'll be sure to tell everyone i know, which means it will be talked about here tomorrow or sunday *tee hee*.

other weekend plans......i want to eat something really delicious and bad for me. i haven't decided what it will be but it's a definite goal. ummm what else, paint some, do some doll stuff, clean up the house a bit, play some castlevania symphony of the night, and try to get well. i think it looks like a full weekend.

off to trapeze about the internet some more before i get to go home~

******NOTE****** i just looked and this is my 27th post of the year.....huzzah that means it's special since 27 is my number, silly but i thought i'd share****************

feeling poopy

as the title says i've been feeling poopy lately.....at the moment i have a sore throat that i'm worried might be strep and despite having gone to the doctor for my mental issues no other drugs other than cold medicine are in my system....it's a shame because i NEED something....i had been prescribed lexapro and it disagreed with me in many ways and didn't do the trick so i'll be asking for something different when i go back in friday morning.

this semester i have been really proud of KidTerror and i. we have been going to class and keeping up with all our obligations and although it's tiring and means we are always busy it's nice to get things done for a change rather than be constantly stressing over things that could have been done on time.

i visited the family last weekend and had a good day out with my mammi and aunt mary. i also got to see my little sister, dad, and my step-mom. all in all it was a good weekend but it wasn't relaxing so i'm looking forward to this weekend so i can do some housework and catch up on some sleep.

art news.....my sculpture looks mayan or aztec-esque. it wasn't planned but evolved out of wanting a face with a strong nose. he's very different from the other sculpture so i think that will give me the edge when he's graded but that's if i can finish him this week. in painting i don't have anything special to report....i'm in a slump and don't really like what i'm doing but i bought some new canvases, acrylic glaze, and acrylic paint workable media that extends the drying time of the paint so i'll have to experiment with those. i'm hoping that i can feel inspired again once i get my health issues fixed.

oh more on sculpture, for my end project i kinda want to make a very large tongue. yes it's odd but i think it would be very amusing and fun to make. KidTerror got some interesting bubble wrap in with a package and the the texture just got my wheels turning. so either the tongue or a figure will be my end project, i haven't decided yet but i'm  eagerly anticipating it.

no dolls news to report, all my darlings have been sitting neglected as i go about my life but i'm sure i'll find some time for them this weekend.

big news (that i nearly forgot to mention), i'm going to A-KON 22 this year!!! it will be my third year to go and they are having my favorite visual kei band, D, play as well as an attached doll convention. once i knew all those details i had to go and i'm really excited for it.

that's all i have for now but i would like to share todays' motto: "Make today your bitch."

pretty sweet motto.....

*title*

i'm too sleepy to come up with a title. i suppose that's what happens with 8am classes and reading all of, "World War Z: An Oral History of the Zombie War." it was a valentines present from KidTerror and it was chosen very well, i suspect it took me around 5 hours of solid reading to finish it. i would have managed to accomplish this in one sitting had i been able to ignore all obligations but i'm pretty pleased the time it took me and how awesome the book turned out to be. most people would probably find it frightening and strange but i was fascinated with the realistic depiction of zombies. it was refreshing and very engaging. i'll definitely re-read it.

this past weekend was wonderfully spent with KidTerror and we remained fairly sequestered in our house which always makes the weekend more enjoyable. we had a valentines day early where i received a TON of chocolates and a hilarious and sweet card:

 

if you find the awesome nature of this card incomprehensible then by all means look up "hentai."

the card was and still is my favorite part about this valentines day because to me it says alot about KidTerror and why i love him. he's a quirky, funny, clever, and caring man that i feel privileged to have in my life. i know it's cheesy but i really think we have a 'forever love' and i look forward to experiencing it with him for as long as i can.

i also dyed some silk hankies, although i think i might need to dye more. any thoughts?

although they aren't really my colors i like the way they blend and it was fun to paint the hankies.

 

i love my grumpy dolls, too bad Panda's eyes were too wonky to photograph him....

what happened to being warm?

i miss being warm so much.....

i have random pictures to share!

some of the yarn i dyed with hope, i really like the bright colors. it reminds me of candy and spring.

some of that yarn in action, notice how a ssk is in the wrong spot, ugh.

my purse/catch all bag, i bought it around x-mas and i really love it.

Hazel's new outfit! I really like it and wish that i could find cute fabric like that (the fabric is imported from Japan, it has little alice in wonderland themed cards on it!)

a finished knit! it's just a simple garter stitch headband but i recently found out that it works well as a cowl or neck-warmer.

i also did some online shopping today and i bought some cute stuff. i bought four dresses from urban outfitters and i'm looking forward to them coming in the mail.

i would one-day like to have many everyday dresses in my wardrobe so it was pretty exciting to pick these few up. with this being said, it was a wee bit pricy but if the fit is good i won't be bothered by that.

other news.....i had a sit down talk about my engagement ring with KidTerror. while i think the ring is pretty i finally broke the news to him that i don't think it fits my personality or style. true to form, Kid Terror was very understanding and sweet about the whole thing! he's pretty much perfect to me and i was really happy to get that secret off my chest since it had been sitting there like a large cat since last june! as far as my ring style, i like antique rings and also like colored stones. i don't think that there should be any 'set' design or guidelines for an engagement ring. i'm just really happy that i can look for something that looks like me and my personality, fits my tiny finger (i didn't think it was little but i now know that 4.5 is indeed small), makes me happy when i see it, and reminds me how much i'm in love with KidTerror.....

pleasant sunday

i just got back from dropping hopey-dopey (my sister) back home and we had a pretty good day. we did some artsy stuff with watercolors:

dyed doll wigs and yarn:

oh and we may have irritated KidTerror just a bit.....

........meh..........

if there was a hell mine would consist of forever waiting to get off from work. that's what i'm currently doing right now and it sucks the big one. so i decided to blog to distract myself from the prospect of booze, knitting, and KidTerror, all lovely things that await me at home.

i really like my flocke. i don't know much about how i'm going to style her yet but so far i know, she won't be a pants-wearing girl. hair length and color as well as eye color are all up in the air as of now, as well as a name. i ramble on about my dolls too much....

my art paper is done, as of 11:02 this evening. it wasn't really hard to write but it seemed tedious since i thought that writing was more or less out of the question this semester. it is comforting to know that this is the only thing that i'll have to write though......

i'm ready to begin the weekend. my plans include cleaning my house, picking up my area (where i keep my dolls, books, art supplies, and knitting/crocheting supplies), watching a movie or two, finishing my knitted hat (no pattern to speak of, but i will post it when it's done), doing my taxes if i get my forms in, and possibly grabbing my sister and taking her out for a bit. it's all pretty dull but it's my plan and i'm pretty pleased with it. oh i also forgot to mention that i might dye some yarn and start some socks, but that's only if i feel super crafty.

i hope KidTerror and i don't get on each other's nerves this weekend...we've had 4 snow-days so we've been cooped up for a while. i enjoyed the snow days since i had a chance to catch up on my laundry but once the pipes in my kitchen froze i was pretty much over it. KidTerror enjoyed the time off from classes the whole time but i imagine it is awesome if you can keep yourself entertained. i lack that capacity at times so after i wasn't able to clean all i wanted i became pissed off....

i bought some silk hankies last night, and i am very excited about them. i have limited experience in different fibers so 100% silk is a pretty big thing for me. i'm looking forward to the sheen of the fiber and seeing how it takes dye. i may save them for a rainy day once i get them since i have a lot of other dyeing projects.

oh another note for this weekend, i get to paint flocke's face! i think once i do this a name will come naturally and then a rough idea of her personality, but until then she's just a blank canvas that i get to ponder about....

little pieces of happiness

i feel better today but i think that's largely due to the fact that it's friday and that i'm rested. i don't have much to ramble on about but i do have some pictures that i'd like to share.

my engagement ring ^^, it's still not sized but it's really pretty and it means i'm another step closer to being hitched to KidTerror, yay!

some hello kitty stuff from my backpack, i don't think there's enough *tee hee* on the left is a compact and the right hand side has a little tin with mints (both gifts from KidTerror). i just thought that they were something cute to post.

and since i already shared some hello kitty love here's some tokidoki for you. i really love the little candle guy, he's a candidate for a tattoo, although i would make the flame green and possibly make the skull a kitty skull so it would be more personalized.

here's one of my newest acquisitions from sallys. i had been wanting some neon colors to round out my nail polish spectrum and i'm pretty happy with these. the only things that i'm a little meh with is that the polish requires alot of coats to be opaque and it's not a high gloss polish. other than that the colors are pretty keen, my nail are the green at the moment .

and here's a teaser pic of some knitting and a ball of yarn i've dyed. it's two strands of lace weight combined for a thin fingering weight yarn. it's nice to have some knitting around.

here are some pots that i did in an art class about a year ago. i had left them in the kiln room and since my prof was doing a clean-up there i thought that i should rescue them. i love them both and they are were really fun the make, i like the one on the left the most but the other one is also quite charming. i'm going to try and get them glazed this semester but i don't want to take away from the patterns...hmmm we'll see ^^

that's all for today. i'm waiting on doll parts and ready for the weekend...

interesting kinda bad day...

today has been odd. the entire day i've felt like the entire world is vibrating, it's a feeling that's i notice in my vision and in my hearing (sounds like a dull buzzing). i don't like it, i've also felt nauseous =_='' and being super nervous and busy hasn't helped it (i went to both of my art classes and made conversation with someone in the last one XD).

work has been tiring, even though everyone is asleep, and i've finished all my work stuff i don't feel like i can be at piece, i think it comes from having an odd morning and going to all my classes. i don't even feel up to doing some art homework and looking over tomorrows math lesson....

days when i'm busy and out of the house make me LONG to be home. i love feeling safe and secure amongst all my belongings and KidTerror; i think i've come to like staying home too much....

although i started off last week with a sunny disposition, a full day of art class kinda killed that for me. i hate feeling angry at all the people around me for no reason, it's ridiculous and rude. i tend to automatically categorize people and it sucks, it affects all aspects of my life and i wish it was a switch i could turn off. i don't consider myself hateful but i can and do think hateful thoughts. i guess it's a positive sign that i recognize that thinking ill of people for no reason is wrong but some days i have a hard time drawing the line between snarky (humorous) and mean. it really upsets KidTerror and i'm just recently noticing how much i do it.

bleh this post is really a downer.....let's see something positive.....meh i think getting to see KidTerror in a few hours is it for now....

<3

heh heh heh yarn

i bought some bare yarn from knit picks, 3 sock blanks and 2 superwash worsted skeins.

i never like to buy colored yarn, because once i realized i could dye it myself i never wanted to do anything else (funny how my yarn dyeing and my hair coloring is similar).

i can't wait til my order comes in! although KidTerror may not enjoy me doing yet another crazy thing with highly concentrated pigments ^^"

excited <3

sleepy...DAY TWO

i'm going to continue with this list.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself:

1. i never really wanted to get married until i met KidTerror.
2. i love collecting abjd's and think it's a really great hobby to have.
3. i have a hair coloring addiction, it's hard for me to keep one color for any longer than 2 months.
4. i'm a horrible dresser although i love to dress my dolls.
5. i'm on a quest to find an energy drink that i don't hate.
6. i think religion is stupid and detrimental.
7. i have an intense love/hate relationship with art.
8. i knit but not as much as i should.
9. i am nearly always grumpy.

meh i'm tired and that's all i really have to say XP

i blame my lack of posts on zombies...

blargh, i never blog!!! probably because not many people read, but i guess that's cool since i don't like people up in my business anyways...

for the moment i am free from the constraints of school and to be truly honest i'm getting bored. i don't want to be overstressed like i was last semester (btw i made B's in all my classes except one!), but i would prefer some more stimulation than has been offered lately. maybe i should make myself paint something, hmmmm maybe....

Kid Terror and I had a kick-ass x-mas! we both hauled it in and didn't have to travel too much so that is always a definite plus. the only drawbacks was that there were so many x-mas celebrations between us that it was old when the last one started, although i was all x-mased out before the holiday as i am a grinch when it comes to x-mas.

other news....Kid Terror and I have confirmed that our house is too small! we had suspicions that it was when we moved (i say 'we' Kid Terror knew, i was just 'YEAH HOUSE ^o^'), it became a bigger problem after the epic x-mas haul so we plan on cleaning out this weekend, after the possible drunken stupor of new years eve wears off....yeah booze~

something else noteworthy, i have nearly been working at my current job for a year! it seems like my time with my quirky group of clients has gone by so fast. it's been full of a lot of up's and down's although i wouldn't change any of it. my clients have also made several milestones themselves and i'm so proud of all of them. i really love my job and will be sad to leave it one day. i except it to be akin to sending children out into the world, i'll wonder if they are being taken care of: if the new staff is making sure that they eat properly, if they are being taken out on outings, if they are getting enough attention, and if they are remembering their manners...basically a HUGE list of things to worry about but i guess that just means that i care which is what they deserve.

the doll hobby is still going strong, and i've fleshed out my two current dolls some more and determined that big dolls are not for me (way to go me, make a super expensive mistake...). i've also found that once i discovered my size range that the hobby is much more relaxing and fun, it's also way easier to plan my next ones (Panda's BF- DM U-Jee, Lucan's GF- DM Tan Paran, a DM Flocke or Sona, and a DM Tan Pado boy).....no i don't have a problem ^_~

my current hair color is similar to manic panic's "new rose" color although i have more variations in color. my hair is also still growing out and i think that keeping the crazy colors has been the only thing keeping my hair from the chopping block.

mmm well that's all for now...i'm off to look at PC games to buy, whiten my teeth, and paint my nails (can you tell which one doesn't fit?).

yeah..... Lucan totally knows he's awesome ^^"

Kid Terror is a sweety

my birthday has been wonderful so far (i haven't even boozed it up yet) and i wanted to show a few pics.